Today marks the 6 year anniversary of Thomas and I dating! I had picked up an extra shift as a house manager for the WWU performing arts center on February 15th and while I was waiting for the show to start a very handsome, bearded man sat across from me in the lobby. Once I finally got out my winning pickup line, the rest was history. He waited until March 1st to ask me out because I was convinced that February was cursed back then. What a wild ride it has been! If it’s at all possible, I think we like each other even more now then we did when we first fell in love.
The most exciting thing I have to share with you all is that I have a new doctor - Dr. Dublin - and a new plan for my health! I only got to talk with her for 20 minutes on Wednesday (with more appointments for the next few weeks), but it was an entirely different experience to any other doctor I’ve met on this journey. I was somewhat expecting that, as I have know of Dr. Dublin for 3 years, she is my Grandpa Jim’s PCP too and really turned his health around. As a family we have all been very grateful for her and now it is my turn to get help.
Dr. Dublin gave me advice that was not only unique, but also counter to anything I’ve been advised to do in the past. Namely that I am not to put myself through any excess strain because she doesn’t want me getting tired out and that I’m not to do any trauma therapy or put myself in situations to get re-triggered by past stress. The most important things for me to manage right now are the anxiety and panic attacks that hit me every few days, I need to focus on preventing them and calming them quickly. I’ll be tracking all my symptoms for her as we go along. She doesn't think we’ll find a complete diagnosis, that what I have probably isn't medically understood yet. She thinks that it probably has to do with fibromyalgia, but that isn't all of it. Mostly she has given me hope because she is confident that we can get me to living a full life again one day even without a diagnosis if we go slowly and don't give up.
I haven't ever been this optimistic!
When I've "taken it easy" long enough that I feel I might burst of boredom, I work on Sapient Living as much I can. As I was sitting at BECU, filling out the paperwork to open a business bank account, I stopped to reflect on all the steps it took to get where I am now and was somewhat overwhelmed by the thought. It has been so very hard, but I can’t wait for what happens next. My desire for having a successful business is one of the elements of my life propelling me forward. If you haven't noticed, I'm a tad ambitious. Illness has not changed this in the slightest.
I have my heart set on moving into an apartment just for Thomas and I ASAP and to do that we need more monthly income to afford rent. Not only will having a place be good for our marriage and my health, I know it will be the launch pad for all the programs and products we hope to offer one day. For now we keep things straightforward, focusing on working smarter, not harder and just trying to add enough income on top of Thomas' full time job to move. What a complicated and challenging world we live in, but I hope the lessons I am learning will help others thrive one day.
We are in the process of preparing to market our first Sapient Living offering. We call it the “Executive Check-In” and it includes a comprehensive assessment of internal and external business systems preceding a final report and further recommendations. We decided to start off with this program because it’s simple, we can do it from home without much setup and these reports will equip us with the information we need to do further work for our clients in the future. It’s thrilling to finally combine the best of what Thomas and I have learned over all these years into one project.
So, nothing too out of the ordinary for me last month. I’m still sick, but I’m hopeful and I’m making progress on Sapient Living every day. Anyone else ready for some warm weather?
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My name is Rebecca Elizabeth Webber and I am a practicing anthropologist working to show humans how to achieve their sustainability goals.