Welcome to November! Did you all have a good Halloween? Thomas and I dressed up as Harry and Meghan (the Duke and Duchess of Sussex).
October was the biggest and fullest month I've had since I got sick back in early 2015. There was a lot of trying things for the first time with my limitations.
I worked outside my house all day for the first and second time. I spent one day at The Riveter on Capitol Hill and the other in coffee shops and someone else's office in Pioneer Square.
I attended a startup and investor meetup to talk about Sapient Living (which is on hold right now).
I celebrate 1 year of successfully using the Fertility Awareness Method (FAM) for birth control. I learned how to do FAM from Hana Wellness, if you are interested in trying it yourself.
I attended the Pacific Northwest Events Expo and after party. I ended that particular Tuesday on a rooftop bar in downtown Seattle sipping champagne.
My oldest nephew, Joey, turned 18!
My house survived more plumbing and electrical issues. All the upstairs pipes and some of the downstairs pipes had to be replaced. I handled the emergency by myself (calling around, finding the right help) when the pipe sprung a leak.
I've started planning my 10 year high school reunion.
I went out with new friends to get tea, go shopping and go out to eat. It was a little nerve wracking being in other people’s cars, in unfamiliar places and not having anyone around who knew how to take care of me if I got triggered. I ate a lot of Pho which is my favorite (and kind of only) option when eating out.
All of this was extremely encouraging and I was so excited that I didn't feel triggered at the events or even much the next day. Unfortunately, it did all end up hitting me in one big wave later on. So… I’m not out of the woods yet and I've spent the last 5 days or so in, on or around my bed letting myself recover.
These experiences have taught me a lot including what I can and cannot do at this point. I know I can attend an event even if it's a little scented, but I will still pay for it at some point.
What this means for my business is that for the immediate future I am releasing any plans I had to do physical productions and networking. Instead I'm doubling down on all things web based.
In the next few months you should keep an eye out for my consulting and influencer work. I'm pretty pumped about it!
What's in store for you next? I'd love to hear what you are up to. If you have a minute, hit reply and send me a little status update.
Love + Light
Welcome to October. I’m eager to do some traditional Fall activities this year! It’s been awhile since I was in the habit of going out, but I really want to go to the u-pick pumpkin patch down in Kent, maybe go through the corn maze and DEFINITELY go to at least one costume party. I’m also ready to switch to more autumnal foods like roasts and soups. If you have any favorites to share, please send them along.
My biggest piece of news this month is that I have filed to create Sapient Living LLC. After 6 years of work “leading humanity onto a more sustainable path” I thought it was the right time to make things official! While Thomas has helped me every step of the way and continues to be my biggest supporter we ultimately decided that it was best for me to start the company as a solo-founder. We’re trying out just being husband and wife for the first time, giving each other the space to explore our own paths which has turned out to be a lot easier on us. Who knew?
I have more plans for Sapient Living that I could possibly put into one update, but my starting point is to develop the public relations side of the company. One of the main ways I plan succeed at my mission is to promote sustainable consumption. I will do this through events and media production featuring ethical and mindfully sourced products as well as their brands and any affiliated action groups.
The research and networking so far has been incredibly motivating. I have been reaching out to a lot of sustainable luxury brands and posting about everything that is inspiring me on the Sapient Living Twitter - check it out!
To help me create a solid strategy on how to achieve my BIG DREAM I have registered for my friend Joey Chandler’s Crazy Dream Mastermind course which will span over the next five months. I was looking for a digital space to spend some time in where I would be encouraged to be as bold as I possibly can about what I want to achieve and Joey offered to add me to the group. I’m pumped!
If you want to join us, you should schedule a discovery call with Joey. To do so, click HERE.
This month I will also be re-starting the Dynamic Neural Retraining Program. I need to at least lessen my MCS, but I’m hopeful that if I dedicate myself to the work, I can heal my MCS completely. I felt better after starting it a few months ago, but the counselor I was seeing at the time felt it was too much for me to take on and encouraged me to stop. I’ve stopped seeing her and I am ready to try the DNRS again!
This decision to stop and heal is having some impact on my work with Sapient House. For months you’ve seen me talk about founding a house, dedicated to being a safe space for people with environmental illness. Well, not only did that never come together, no matter how much energy I put into it, I’m also exhausted from all the emotional labor. So, when Thomas and I move to Seattle it will have nothing to do with Sapient Living or House and will simply be a home.
I had been thinking that running Sapient Living, especially the events and media productions, out of my house would be more convenient, but now I see how difficult that would actually be. I have spent over four years in isolation. If I can, I’d rather experience what it’s like to have an office and event space separate from my home. The part of me still holding onto my limitations thinks this is impossible, but the rest of me says to do it anyway.
Thank you for taking the time to read a little bit about my life right now and what is on my mind. I hope you are enjoying your day!
I don’t know about you, but for me, September always calls for some big changes and this year is no different. Autumn is also my favorite season so I’m a happy camper.
The biggest news I have this month is that Thomas recently started working as a clinician for Sound Health on Capitol Hill in Seattle. He is specifically working to serve chronically homeless and mentally ill clients. He just finished his 3rd week and is really loving it already.
In a few weeks Thomas will be giving a talk to his colleagues about Multiple Chemical Sensitivity. Neither of us has ever formally spoke about my condition, but he thinks that is it important for the staff for know about environmental illness as some of the clients also suffer. He plans to encourage the staff to switch to all natural, fragrance free products around the office.
The work at Sound is really exciting and I am grateful to have opportunities to be involved. I already got to consult on a case with one of Thomas’s co-workers. Mostly just gathering resources about how to help someone with disordered eating, but I felt a little bit like my old self again. Opportunities like this let me explore what I might want to do next now that I am really starting to feel a lot better.
Speaking of my health, today was a really fun day and I don’t think I would have been able to do all that I did even a few months ago. It started with brunch with some of Thomas’s co-workers. One of the absolute best things about Thomas working at Sound is that it has given us the great opportunity to reunite with our friend Sarah who works there and helped Thomas find this job. Sarah was my resident in Nash when I was an RA at Western and also helped me with the mental health department at Middle Women.
It seems to me like when the Universe wants you to know someone or go somewhere they make it really easy. One of the other things I got to do today was to attend an open house hosted by The School of Sacred Rebellion where I had a reading and healing by the owner, Anna. I felt so light and whole afterwards, it was amazing!
I really have been feeling more vibrant. The main things that I think have been helping are getting up at the same time every day, listening to guided meditations and affirmations when I’m doing chores and working to eat more intuitively. I would still like to get moving more often, but I am happy with how much I’m getting out. I still get triggered sometimes when I’m in public, but it’s not as bad as it was a few years ago and I’ve just learned to take the next day off if I need to.
Now that we know where Thomas is working, we also know where abouts we would like to live next. I am still work to coordinate Sapient House and I am optimistic that I will find the right group of lovely people and a great location very soon. Prayers appreciated!
As always, I hope this message finds you well. Try to find a moment this weekend to show yourself some unconditional love. Life is so much better when you are best friends with yourself.
Thank you all for your patience, I know that is has been a very long time since I sent an update about Sapient House. I was specifically waiting to know where Thomas would be working next so I could determine roughly where to look for houses. He’s all settled in now as a clinician on Capitol Hill working with chronically homeless and mentally ill clients, so let’s make this happen!
If you have already applied to live in Sapient House, would you please send me a reply letting me know if you are still interested or not?
I’d like to get everyone interested in living together and all of our community supporters into the same Facebook Group. If this applies to you please join → Sapient House Community Group
If you have yet to apply or know someone who you think would be a good fit, here is the link to the application for you to use and share → Sapient Housemate Application
For more information about the origin of Sapient House, who I think an ideal housemate is and what I will be looking for in a rental property visit → Sapient House via RebeccaEWebber.com
Again, thank you so much for sticking with me. I hope to have more good news to share with you soon and as always, let me know if you have any questions.
If you know me, you know that I am obsessed with all things health and wellness because I've been fighting for it my whole life. Today, I thought that I would take some time to talk with you all about the supplements I use to help my husband Thomas and I get complete nutrition while also treating our various health concerns. I use a variety of supplements to treat my depression, anxiety, PTSD and sleep issues while Thomas mainly takes extra supplements to keep his Juvenile Rheumatoid/Idiopathic Arthritis in remission. There are a lot of similarities in treating these different conditions as they both have to do with inflammation.
Scroll down to the bottom of this post to see my video on this topic!
Below I have linked the the exact brands/products we use, so if you would like to add something we take into your routine you can quickly find and buy it. Most links will be to products on Amazon and if you use the link and buy that product or any product on the site during your session I get a commission which helps me create more content. Also, just a quick reminder that I am not a certified health care provider, but I have a bit of knowledge that I can give you which just might help and I'm happy to do it.
What I Take In a Day
Folate - 1 capsule (400 - 1,000 mcg)GABA - 1 capsule (750 mg)
Camu Camu Powder (2.5 mg)Psyllium Husk - 3 capsules (1.5 g)Fish Oil - 3 capsules (3000 mg)B12 - 1 capsule (1500 mcg)Vitamin D - 1 gel cap (5,000 IU)Chlorella Spirulina - 5 tablets (1 g)Turmeric Complex - 1 capsuleSelenium - 1 capsule (200 mcg)
Melatonin - 1 tablet (1 mg)Calcium (1000 mg) Magnesium (500 mg) - 2 capsulesGABA - 1 capsules (750 mg)
Additional Supplements for Thomas
Glucosamine (1500 mg) Chondroitin (1200 mg) & MSM (1000 mg) - 4 capsules
Refilling Our Pill Cases
I made this video to show you what it's like for me to refill our pill cases every Tuesday and to talk a little more about our stories, what we take and why.
I hope that you learned something useful from this project. If you know anyone who might be helped by my work please pass it along. Thank you!
Today is the day. Thomas is off to his first day of full time work. He's been gone for less than 5 minutes and I already miss him. I feel myself starting to cry. My stomach turning over. What will I do alone? What will happen on my personal journey? Now is the time for me to find myself and work towards my own goals. For the record, we've spent almost all our time together for over 5 years. We hit 10,000 hours of face to face conversation over a year ago.
Over the past 10 weeks Thomas and I have spent all day, every day together. Thomas had broken his leg and couldn't walk or work (as a bus driver, his previous job). We were just in separate rooms sometimes, but I could always walk into the living room and see him. It was really hard at first to share so much time and space, but then I think we found some balance. The last few days I've really been looking forward to today. I want to watch whatever I want when I want, go back to sleep, eat when and what I want, research and grow. I have several lists of things I can do by myself.
The two words going through my head right now are enmeshment and codependence. These are so true about Thomas and my current relationship. I'm scared, this is all new, but I want to know us as people who want each other, not who need each other for survival. That's what it's felt like all these years. We finally now have the change in circumstance that will allow us to explore new parts of ourselves and reunite each day with a new perspective.
I hope to take this time and discomfort and turn it into content. One of my goals is to generate enough income online so that Thomas can one day decide that he'd like to do the same. I'll help figure out the production model and then in a few years Thomas might join me in content creation. We both still want to tour in a tiny house and own a Waystone where we and our friends can live when not traveling.
All that being said, I've never seen Thomas so excited for anything. He will be working for Sound Mental Health as a clinician serving homeless clients in Seattle. When we were talking last night he said the only 2 things he'd change about the job is that he'd rather make $20 and hour vs $19 (which will go up in 6 months) and that he'd like to have more hands-on experience with homeless camps. When I suggested that he probably will be spending time in homeless camps because part of his job is to go out and find his clients, he lit up. Kind of like a 6 year old, eager to go on an adventure. The most important things for me right now is supporting us both in this great transition, I know he feels the same.
Today is Thomas and my three year wedding anniversary and we are celebrating in our traditional ways. We like to have lunch at a garden we've never been to before, go out to pho for dinner and maybe go see a movie if we like what's playing. I woke up this morning to a new plant for our house, this time a money tree for good luck and fresh air. There was also a homemade card with my favorite little comic characters by Fukari on it. Mostly we are just grateful to get to spend the day together, but I do feel delightful being given surprises! If you haven’t already noticed, Thomas and I are quite fond of one another so everything else is a extra special bonus.
I was planning on telling you all that I'm still not working on any projects, but then two nights ago I realized that how I live my life is a continuous project. I eat a menu exclusively comprised of recipes I invented, I have systems in my home that came into being in a similar fashion and in general I am realizing that no one taught me how to live like this. I think my life is my work and as an applied anthropologist that actually makes a lot of sense. I'm so happy to have a supportive husband and community that appreciates me. I feel inspired to keep going.
Here are some of my weekly staple recipes, I plan to publish more to my website soon -
I am still waiting to work on our next home, whether that is a full on Sapient House production or simply a small space for me and T, until after Thomas gets hired to a new job. His leg is taking longer to heal than we anticipated and we might have to push back his return date to bus driving another week or so again. At this point he's applied to about 40 jobs and is in the interview process for a few of those. I am confident that everything will work out in the right way at the right time, we just don’t know what that looks like exactly. I’m oddly okay with that!
About a week ago I was having a really strong day and I created a small Facebook chat comprised of a few of my health focused friends to help me on my journey. It has been helpful to have a safe forum to talk on as I navigate the sometimes extreme ups and downs that can come on any given day. I'm trying to not get ahead of myself and just focus on the basics - rest, nutrition, hydration, movement and breathing. It's amazing what can happen when you put first things first or so I've heard (and am starting to see). I'm trying to keep my home and body in order before I put much more into anything else. Way easier said than done, but to help focus I have uploaded a few vlogs since my last update. I'm really glad that I'm doing them because I think they document my progress well.
Here are my last three vlogs -
I am ready for the next chapter in my life to begin and I'm truly pleased that I've had so much time to get to this point and feel this way. I know there will be challenges coming from every direction, but I feel strong and I have the best life partner. More later, I hope you are well!
Love + Light
In honor of July being World Watercolor Month I hope to take time to get a little creative over the next few weeks. I'm on a mission to discover what activities really light me up and I remember loving art when I was younger. I've been trying to race ahead so much I've forgotten to stop and enjoy each day.
Being more creative and discovering my favorite things again is all part of my latest healing plan. I'm pretty tired of being unwell and I'm sure all of you would love to see me vibrant and lively again (or ever seeing, as many of you have never known me as a healthy person). The latest from my doctors is that they want to treat my PTSD, focusing on getting my body to a state where I'm sleeping and eating enough. The thought is that my mental unwellness is responsible for my physical limitations. If we can heal my brain, we will heal my body. Sounds good to me.
I'm excited to one day get to have a job again. I’ve been looking at what I might want to do once I'm well because I truly believe that I will overcome my current struggles. One day I will combine my love of events, food and sustainability into something great. I think my first project along those lines will still be the sustainable co-living space (Sapien House) but it's just a bit out of reach based on my current energy levels. Right now I'm simply working to articulate what I think will help in my healing. Part of that is thinking about what I might really want in a new home and what kind of setting I'd like it to be in. If I can include other people and a few teaching moments along the way, all the better.
Thomas is working everyday to find his next job. It's really inspiring to see him find out what makes him light up too! He is applying for jobs mainly in human and community services. Anything where he can use his degree in Business Management to help underserved populations feels right to him. He truly believes that everyone deserves great opportunities, a supportive community and access to healthy resources. I can't wait to see what he does next and into the future. He is mainly aiming for Seattle and King County jobs, but he’s looking at Tacoma and Pierce County opportunities as well.
So that's me this month. It's a pretty simple life right now and I'm really appreciating it. I'm taking the time to just heal myself, support Thomas in his next career move and coordinate our next home. It's nice for once not to be starting any new big project or trying to tackle some major social issue. There will be time for all of that once I'm well and we are settled.
I hope this update finds you well! What are you doing to take care of yourself this month?
Love + Light
Wow! It's hard to know where to begin, there is so much going on in my life. Mostly good, somewhat unexpected and often challenging. Welcome to June! Let's jump right in…
Thomas broke his leg. The technicals are that he has a small fracture right in the center of his right tibia and will be on sick leave for about 6 more weeks. Thomas isn't in much pain, he just has to stay off his leg all the time. This accident has catapulted me into a position of responsibility that I haven't had since before my limbic system injury over three years ago. More on what I mean by that in a minute, but the point I'm trying to make in this paragraph is that I get to do everything around the house and all the errands now. As some of you know, I haven't really left the house by myself in three years and Thomas has been doing all the chores since I've been so tired and weak. Not anymore! Now I'm the driver, I'm running errands by myself and it feels pretty good. I'm getting stronger! Not to say it's been easy and I certainly didn't think I could do it, but I'm doing it and it's having an impact of the rest of my life.
Most importantly, the more I do the more I want to do. I’m trying not to push it, but there is so much to do! My body is noticing the changes, which it mostly interprets as danger causing daily panic attacks, but what's a girl to do? Well, the Dynamic Neural Retraining System of course! I mentioned that I now know that I have a limbic system injury and the impairments from that injury include Multiple Chemical Sensitivity. Limbic system injuries can be caused by a variety of different traumas and create a lot of different symptoms of illness. Mine was brought on by chronic stress and exposure to harmful toxins. Annie Hopper’s Dynamic Neural Retraining System teaches you how to identify the thoughts, feelings and behaviors that reinforce the illness or injury and helps you to challenge and replace those experiences with positive ones. This program can not only help me desensitize from toxic chemicals as well as calm my PTSD, hypervigilance, depression, anxiety and many of the other unpleasant states I’ve experienced on a daily basis for years. Thomas is also using the program to overcome his childhood trauma which has resulted in his low self worth and core belief that being successful means disobeying his parents. He had a messed up experience like so many of us have, but today we are feeling hopeful and I am very grateful that we are healing side by side.
Check Out Thomas’s Daily Posts on Instagram - @offworlddreamer
Sapient House! Okay, I didn't know how to transition there, but that's still the next topic. So… I'm coordinating a healthy, supportive and affordable live/work solution for people with chemical sensitivity and some of our fragrance-free allies. Since starting Annie’s program my thoughts on this project have changed somewhat and I don't have all the words, but basically I want Sapient House to be a demonstration of a lifestyle in alignment with what all chemically sensitive people learn in their battle for life. Namely that the products humans use on a daily basis in our homes, offices, yards and factories are EXTREMELY TOXIC. I was talking with the FDA (yeah I talk to the government now) the other day and they confirmed that because there are no laws to regulate ingredients in most industries, we just don't know what's in the products and there's no reason for companies to tell us. Sapient House will be a place where we use the safest and healthiest products from our favorite brands and show others how to do the same. However, now that I am hopeful of a way to heal MCS I don't want to think of Sapient House as a forever home, but more of a place to live while I continue to heal and for others to do the same. This work is nested in the much larger conversation, namely the homeless crisis in Washington.
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Sapient House will be the way we begin the conversation, but we hope to open it up to the larger issues at hand. Presently, I am putting together the plans for an event. It will take a little while to put together but the idea is to invite people from housing authorities and green building companies as well as investors, community focused humans, policy makers, educators and students to participate in one discussion. I believe that if we can get representatives from all of these areas to come together under one objective we can make a real plan and begin helping people now. There are many reasons why someone could be homeless or struggling to find or keep affordable housing. For me, homelessness and dependance on my family stems from brain injury and disabling symptoms. For others it could be anything else. I will always advocate for the safe housing of injured people like me first, but truly I want to live in a world where everyone is safely sheltered and the risk of future limbic system injury be it from pollution or trauma is diminished or eliminated entirely.
Thank you for reading my extra long update this month. There is so much more to say I could go on forever. I hope to create more videos on my YouTube Channel and post more content to my Blog in the coming days and weeks. With so much going on I can barely keep up, but in general it feels like no matter how chaotic, I'm headed in the right direction.
If you have any questions, comments or want to get involved in any of my projects please let me know. Take care of yourselves and I hope to hear from you soon!
Welcome to May and Happy Beltane to all who celebrate the turnings of the year. I am SO looking forward to this month. First and foremost, my lovely husband Thomas turns 30 on the 7th and he was able to get the whole week off from work so we get to have some adventures. Also, we are hard at work putting together our next home. I’m sure it doesn’t surprise any of you that it’s going to be more than just our home.
We are currently in the process of organizing a healthy, supportive and affordable live/work space for people with environmental illness and their fragrance-free allies. We call this project Sapient House and it will be dedicated to all of the people that we have met along our journey in search of answers, of which there are far too few.
Ideally we will create this oasis in the Seattle area, but the set up and management of the space is what is most important to us so we are willing to relocate for the right opportunity. If during the process of production we find a place to live, we will move there until we can create our own space. People with environmental illness have a nearly impossible time of finding safety and often don’t have the experience to navigate towards a revolutionary solution. Luckily, we have my degree in modern applied cultural anthropology and experience as a producer as well as Thomas’s humanitarian spirit and business management degree to pull from, but we know we still need a lot of help to make Sapient House a success. Presently we are working to secure the right location, people and funding as well as some key partnerships. If you would like more information about this project please visit me at RebeccaEWebber.com/Sapient-House.
This week I am starting a mental health program called the Dynamic Neural Retraining System ™ which I am both excited for and apprehensive of. It is the only known cure for Multiple Chemical Sensitivity, but of course it doesn’t work for everyone so I don’t want to get my hopes up. It will be a lot of work and I need to dedicate at least an hour a day to the program for the next six months. At this point I am so done being sick and tired all the time. It would be amazing to have a healthy life again.
Even when I find a way to heal myself I still plan to live a natural, fragrance-free lifestyle. Sapient House is currently a necessity which makes it stressful, but it is also the jumping off point from which I can do my other work. The very ambitious part of me keeps noting the connection between my goals and that of the UN. When I have more time and energy (a goal for every member of Sapient House) I hope to get to a point where I officially get to demonstrate a lifestyle that is in alignment with the UN Global Goals, specifically goals 3 (Health), 11 (Community), 12 (Products) and 17 (Partnerships). I want to dream big, but today, like most days I have very little energy and so much just has to wait. At least I have plenty to look forward to.
I hope this update finds you well. If you are interested in helping with the production of Sapient House, know someone who might be or have any advice at all please let me know. Every day I learn just how much community is key to everything. Thank you for being in mine.
P.S. I want to thank my Patrons - Amanda Wright, Tiela Combs and Jesamie Flynn. I truly appreciate you ladies!
My name is Rebecca Elizabeth Webber and I am an applied anthropologist working to show humans how to achieve their sustainability goals.